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The world has always felt like a confusing place to me. Too big. But too small. So many people.

There's no universal truths or right paths to follow. And you never seem to be able to get a clear view of who you are.

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When you've had to fight for everything you have in life, you by need develop an absurd faith in the delusion that there HAS to be someone (out there) that struggles just as much as you do. Someone who never gives up either. And that you'll find him and be the one fought for.

But then you don´t.

When that doesn't happen, you slip into the next phase, where you narcissistically believe you've made yourself so strong you'll one day stand out from every crowd.

But then you don't.

As for the next stage, I'm still working on it. (Spoiler Allert) it's starting to seem very clear to me that us fighters are just tired people who expect too much from life.